Mr. Wolfman had to work, which is fine. I'm glad he didn't do breakfast in bed or anything, because he would have had to wake me up ass early, which I wouldn't have liked. I'd been on the couch with the little monster since about 2am anyway, so I'd been sleeping pretty poorly for most of the night.
He didn't say anything to me, which is less fine, but I figured, whatever. I think mother's day is a different day in his country (although, come to think of it, his mother messaged me to wish me a happy mother's day, so maybe not).
I didn't have much planned. It was a beautiful day, and I thought about taking the monster to the park, but I figured it would be crazy busy. I sent my mom a happy mother's day message and she responded a little while later, so I asked her to Skype, but she was still out with her mother (I can picture her just sitting at the table playing on facebook, instead of talking to my grandmother) and would be home in an hour. I told her to enjoy the rest of lunch. I did not tell her I'd be home in an hour, but she assumed I would be.
I decided to go to the store and get myself lunch. I spent forever getting the monster ready, because he's somehow hitting the terrible twos at 7.5 months, and was having a meltdown every 10 seconds, most notably because I made him wear socks. I didn't put sunscreen on him, so by the time I realized that just because my mother was expecting me to be online when she got back from lunch, it didn't mean I had to be, we were already half-way to the grocery store. I didn't want to keep him out in the sun too long, so I ended up going straight home after shopping anyway.
I Skyped my mom, said hello to her and my gran, then heard my cousin's* voice from another room. My mom informs me that said cousin has come to take her to tea, and my computer promptly dies. I get my computer booted up less than five minutes later, and my mom has left.
Ok, whatever. So I feed the monster and putter around the house, generally having an unproductive, stupid day, trying to figure out what I want to do when Mr. Wolfman gets home. Because I'm ridiculous and a glutton for punishment, I actually call my mom back and talk to her (she says hi to the monster before me, and ignores me in favour of him for most of the call) and I don't tell her that she's just blown me off, mid-call for the 3rd time in a week. There was also a lot of her going on about how they couldn't afford to visit this month like they'd hoped and a lot of what I can only assume were hints that they should stay with us. They were horrible house guests last time, so I just agreed that it sucked they can't come now, but maybe in the fall and blah, blah, blah.
Mr. Wolfman came home during the end of this convo. and told me that his boss had invited us for a BBQ. I asked if he'd forgotten what day it was, and was surprised that he hadn't. I told him I didn't think we'd be spending mother's day with his boss.
Said goodbye to my mom, finally got to use the bathroom (the monster had been crazy most of the day, and didn't want to sit in his playpen for any length of time, unless I stayed in the room and stared at him) and by the time I came out, it had been decided that we were going to this BBQ.
I didn't want to let it ruin the day, so I said fine, the only thing I wanted for mother's day was a family picture, so we were going to do that first.
Again with getting ready taking 100 years. The food I'd gotten for lunch made me feel sick, so I wasn't hungry, but Mr. Wolfman was, so he got food and then we got dressed, got the monster dressed, etc. So the beautiful day had turned into an overcast day by now. Or partially cloudy, I guess. The sun was getting lower, but we apparently needed to go to the grocery store for snacks.
We get to a beautiful spot for taking pictures, then sit in the car and watch the light disappear as Mr. Wolfman eats the icecream he'd bought. So, of course, by the time we actually go to take the pics, I'm in a shitty mood and the sun is behind the clouds and it's cold. When it was still sunny, I'd dressed the monster in a cute outfit with short sleeves and I was wearing a dress that I bought 2 years ago and had been waiting for a chance to wear.
So we're standing around, in buggy air, horrible light, and cold. It was too late when the sun did come out from behind the clouds, so the light was really harsh, and Mr. Wolfman seemed to think I should be shooting sunshine out my ass because we were getting to do what I wanted, so I said let's just forget it.
Mr. Wolfman was pissy because he said the pics we got were good and why wasn't I happy? I told him it didn't matter at this point whether the pics were good or not, because I'm just going to look at them in the future and be reminded how shitty my day was. Wrong answer, I guess. I told him let's just go to this stupid BBQ and then he didn't want to go with me like this. But I told him we're going, and I'll pretend to smile and be nice to his work people. As I see it, my day was already ruined, I wasn't going to let it be ruined for literally nothing. He said we would just go and say hi. We were there for 2 hours.
The BBQ wasn't horrible. It wasn't even remotely enjoyable, but I could have easily and happily withstood it on any other day. The worst part was that the sun came back out, it got warm again and it turned into an absolutely perfect evening, weather-wise. And I spent it listening to my husband's blowhard boss and his friends blather about nothing, try to give me food after I'd told them no thank you repeatedly and come up to me one-by-one to ask the same questions about the monster, over and over again. Including what solids he's on, which is a major sore spot for me because, if you remember my Easter post, these are the same assholes who likely gave him the stomach bug which, a month ago, caused him to stop eating solids when he'd been eating really well. He still won't touch them.
We went for a short walk and went back to the car, whereupon Mr. Wolfman suddenly realized that I was upset (I told him I'd pretend to be happy for his work people and I had) and spent the rest of the night trying to cheer me up, and then being sad because I was sad.
That pisses me off. Like, I didn't give a shit about what you wanted to do today until the last minute. Why are you so saaaaaad? The worst thing is that he's genuinely upset that I'm upset, so now I feel guilty for being sad. But fuck.
I don't even care about mother's day. Not on the whole. I think it's a dumb, made-up holiday. I'm fairly certain that this was the only mother's day that will ever have mattered for me, because it was my first. Because it was supposed to be some kind of... I don't know. I don't even know. It wasn't supposed to be this.
*I don't talk to her at all. She's never seen or met my son and never will.